For my whole life, I have had to fight emotional challenges. Whether someone made fun of me, I felt insecure, or I just had an awful day, I have had to put a lot of effort into coming out of these challenges and putting myself together again. I have never been a very confident or outgoing girl, so many of my thoughts and feelings stay trapped inside of me.

Being a thirteen-year-old girl, I tend to have negative thoughts about myself a lot  of the time. Society has created these standards that every girl is expected to follow, and these standards are not ideal for most girls. These standards just give most girls something that they feel they have to live up to that is not who they are. This is often why many girls lose who they are because they are trapped trying to be someone else. When girls don’t fulfill these expectations, they tend to feel bad about themselves.

However, why should people be encouraged to squeeze into the boxes that they don’t fit into? Why have these “boxes” been created in the first place? We should not be in boxes; we should be free. Free to be who we are, with no standards attached.

I have a hard time with this concept. I tell myself that I’m not good enough; that I need to fulfill so many expectations. I have insecurities just like every girl in the world does. So, here is a little request: When you see something that is imperfect about me, there is no need to remind me. Trust me, I know. I remind myself of my imperfections everyday. Half of the flaws I see are probably not noticed by anyone else. But I can tear myself apart because of the parts of myself that I don’t like, and none of this feels very good. I sometimes cry to myself when no one is watching, and I hope and pray that one day I will be “good enough”.
When I am reminded of my imperfections by another voice that is not mine, it can feel like digging into a wound that has been created long ago. When I hear a voice that is not mine repeat these words to me, my heart shatters. Someone else has noticed. Someone else thinks I’m not good enough. It must be true.

I imagine that I am not the only teenager who goes through this painful process.

I am getting there, though. I’m working so hard on myself and I’m learning to realize that no matter what mean words I am hearing, either from the inside or the outside, that I am good enough. I’m doing this by learning to focus on the parts of myself that I actually like instead of the parts that I don’t like.

Because of my own experiences, I am very cautious about what I say to others. One never knows what someone is dealing with in their personal life, or inside of them, even if it looks like they have everything figured out. Being kind to everyone is the best route to go. If you say a mean comment to someone, you can either ruin their happiness, or add more to their sadness. Kind words are so simple, but they can do so much. They can put a smile on someone’s face, someone who has been going through a really hard time. Even if someone is already happy, adding some extra kindness into their day can never go wrong.

I challenge you to be kind to one another and to be kind to yourself; why not try to focus on saying nice things to one another and to yourself, too, because one thing this world could really use more of right now is kindness. It can start right here with you and me.

xo Jilly


Author: journeytojillianblog

Jillian. 14. 9th Grade. Confused. Searching. Writing my way through.

12 thoughts on “Kindness”

  1. Such deep feelings you have expressed. Made me start relating to what you said. Even as an adult, I think all of us have those thoughts at times. I am really impressed with your being able to express yourself through your writing. I love you very much!


  2. What deep insightful words Jillian. I believe we all struggle with what you have verbalized.. whether someone is 13, 30, 60… we are our own worst critic .. I love your suggestion of being kind to others… also remember first to be kindest to yourself!! Awesome piece! Keep writing!


  3. An amazing blog, Jillian! Not many people truthfully put themselves out there especially young adults. You are so mature and such a special person. Xoxo


  4. Jillian , let me start by saying. You are beautiful inside and out , what a gift you’ve given to all that read this . Keep shining you light and wisdom on this world you will change a lot of lives in doing so , xxoo Angie


  5. That voice inside all of humanity’s head is called the voice of the inner critic. It believes in the world’s standards of success. It will pressure you and pressure you, and when you succeed, it will criticize you again, because nothing will ever satisfy it, bc it is an anxiety-driven voice that wants to help you to survive. All you have to do is to tell it that you have things handled and you don’t need its protection. Remember that this voice is just trying to help you survive, but that it is often misguided and illogical, and what it says is most of the time totally untrue, or over-exaggerated, and therefore false. Everyday, you are good enough. Everyday, you are worthy. Don’t let that voice in your head tell you that you need to follow the world’s standards.


    1. When someone else says something to you that is a repetition of what your inner critic’s voice says to you inside your head, and we all do this, you automatically project your inner critic’s voice onto their voice, so that their voice has a much greater impact on you than it would normally have. It is a ghost voice from your past.


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